That’s what I remember most clearly. The sun was shining, the sky was an intense blue. It was starting to cool off as summer gave way to fall. I had left home early that morning to go to a prayer group with a couple of friends, one who was in the midst of her seminary training. We talked about our lives and our concerns, and we remembered in particular the young Christian women who were being held captive in Afghanistan. We prayed for their safe return, and we prayed for change that would bring peace and freedom to that part of the world.
I left, running late as usual, to meet Husband and youngest daughter (then three) at McDonald’s. He headed to work, and she asked to stay and play for a while. We took an outside table, and she climbed and bounced and slid while I drank coffee and read the paper. A little after nine, I decided it was time to head home, and we gathered up our stuff and climbed into the momvan. I tuned in to NPR, expecting to hear music, but instead I heard something about a plane hitting the Pentagon.
I grabbed my cell phone and called Husband at work. “Have y’all heard anything about a plane crashing into the Pentagon?” I asked. He replied, “We heard a plane hit a building in New York. If one hit in Washington, then we’re under attack.” That just didn’t compute. Surely it was some kind of coincidence, some chain reaction of events that had led to two accidents in two different cities.
We arrived home, and I hid in the bedroom to watch the news. There were conflicting reports, but it soon became clear that two planes had hit separate towers at the World Trade Center and one had hit the Pentagon. Rumors abounded: the police had found car bombs around Washington, there were more planes headed for other targets. Then the word that another plane had crashed in rural Pennsylvania. At first, I could only thank God that the nearby homes and school had been spared.
I called my stepdaughter, who had spent part of her freshman year of college in DC, to make sure she knew what was happening. I caught her in the waiting room of her ENT’s office, where everyone was gathered around a radio, trying to get more information. As we talked, I watched one of the towers fall. “Oh my God, the building just fell down.” It wasn’t real. It was The Towering Inferno or Independence Day or any one of hundreds of disaster movies. People couldn’t really be leaping from the windows, fearing flames more than they feared the certain death of falling to the concrete below.
I sat transfixed, as did millions of others, for the rest of the day, just watching. When middle daughter came home from school, we tried to explain a little about what had happened. How do you tell an eight-year-old, a very sensitive and empathetic eight-year-old, that thousands of people had been murdered? At the time, the death toll looked to be much higher than it was eventually determined to be, with so many people unaccounted for and unable to contact their families or employers. There is no way to make sense of the cruelty, the single-minded purpose, the hatred that would lead anyone down such a path.
That evening, we went to the Red Cross, hoping to donate blood for the survivors. We weren’t alone; the wait was measured in hours rather than minutes. We took the little ones home to bed, planning to return the next day, but by then we knew the blood wasn’t needed. There were no injured survivors waiting for transport to the trauma centers around the country that had geared up to take them.
I didn’t know anyone who died on September 11. A childhood friend, now a commercial pilot, knew the pilot of Flight 93. He wasn’t surprised at the heroism shown by the crew and passengers. After all, it requires a special kind of courage to break the bonds of earth and take to the air. Some twisted that courage into a murderous purpose. Some used it to save the lives of all those who would have died if that flight had reached its target.
Today, I choose to remember the firefighters, the police officers, the rescue workers, the ordinary citizens who did an extraordinary thing. The survivors who have endured unimaginable loss and still managed to go on. Those who live quietly, in anonymity, and those who have spoken out, demanding answers to their questions. Those who comforted the dying and continue to comfort the living. The soldiers who serve this country. The citizens of the United States who refuse to allow fear of terrorism to destroy our free and open society. Today, I remember the heroes.